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I apologize for the following pent up rant. I'm mellow and happy on the inside but I just need to get this out. 
If "she" reads this she's either gonna cry or come after me. 
I don't know wtf to say anymore. But I have some feelings to. So sorry about this-

I'm so torn up inside and I can't even talk to her. 
It's been years...

She cheated on me. 
Confuses me. 
And she forgot my name. 
Then cries when I'm not focused on her. 
Hates everything sexual. And thinks I'm a self centered sexual deviant. 
I had a nightmare of her being so negative towards my new friends I made at college.
And I had this dream gone nightmare when I was in my college dorm.
She gave me photo's long ago of her that I ingrained into my head
I was happy in the dream and then everything went sour.  

Well. Fuck. 
My life doesn't revolve around it sex.
And if I want to act sexy then dam it I will. I live once. I'm gonna act like a sexy rock star fuck, who will not give two shits about anything but love. When I'm gonna love something I'm gonna do it right. And if I feel like being physical it just means I care- ALOT. And when I'm horny a get possessive now. I listen, I be careful, but when the time comes then ya- I'll ravage. 

I'm in college and she dropped off the face of the earth years ago which scares the shit out of me. 
And I want to burn every picture she drew for me but I can't...

So if I remember the time right, 2 years ago? So 2 years ago I acted like a lovesick simpleton trying to give my life and devotion to her- and I scared her cause I was like a chicken with it's head cut off trying to "make it work". 
Even looking back on it what in the fuck was wrong with me... 
She wants to forget about me and I'm just an ignorant road block in her way. 

And people tell me I'm kind, smart, wonderful, nice, and even sexy. In my last years of high school I did Roleplay. 
Ya I was young and stupid with time to kill doing role plays online. It was to fill a void. And it helped a little. 

And this woman, who's gorgeous mind you, forgot my name and cries when I try to date someone else. 
She had someone contact me about dating someone, and months later me and this person (this one person she may have been either jealous or upset about) broke up with me. Peacefully might I add. 

...

Now I'm single and thinking "Maybe I should have asked her why she was crying?" 
Maybe I should have tried again even though I knew talking to her would be agonizingly terrifying with her picking apart my words and sentences. And she didn't even like the relationship...

Well I always look like the bad guy, and when I spoke back then it was either too passionate or borderline creepy. Anyways I forgave her repetitively, she wanted to break up and I just want her to be happy. 
Yet she forgets my online name, and thinks I'm a sexual deviant.

Back then it was just love. And wanting the other to feel good. 

If I'm a pervert now from what I have done over the years- fine. I'd rather know wth I'm doing then not at all. 

I tried being a protector, the pleaser, the listener, the devoted mate, patient, willing to do anything.

Now? 
Everything needs to be more laid back. 

I'm just going to go on normal dates... 
Look at the person and their real character. 
Not someone else's character or a fictional one. 

I want a normal dating experience, 
and if I'm gay. I'm going to be the best dam boyfriend I can be. 
And I'll pick out cute fun dates. Real life, dinners, movies, and picnics. 

If I'm single for a while it's fine.
I know I'm worth it... I don't need to bend backwards or go on my knees because I'm lovesick and hurt over 1 person. 
Unless it's to help somebody- or give a ring on my knees to someone. Which I don't see the ring anytime soon.

So I'll try my hardest to move on. 
Ya, Sounds good. :)

Oh and I'm not going to continue my YouTube channel forever- I use the same name as on here. I'm just going to keep posting things I like till I move on from it. And if I cover it in anymore Hetalia it may be cutesy but I want to sugar coat it with cuteness (probably usuk) and sexy videos. Sexy videos because I get frisky and feel like the shit sometimes. I'm single and I need an outlet if I can't be passionate. Anyways, I have 1 video ready for "a like" for Christmas. It's a funny video but I might quit before Christmas. Idk. I'm gonna roll with it. :) 

  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: You Don't Know Me Lyrics by Ben Folds and Regina.
  • Reading: My feelings and now relaxing.
  • Watching: Was watchin Hetalia & League of legends vids today
  • Playing: I like to play videos games. :)
  • Eating: I'm not. But I really want to make a snickers joke
  • Drinking: Nope.

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HarukaTokiwa
Cupcakes killed the Muffin man
Artist
United States
Hey there, I'm Haruka and this is my profile. I'm a Sagittarius and I enjoy childrens card games. And I'm Head over heels about Hetalia- I roleplay it. So be nice and don't scorn me for it. Also I live in a nice house- how else would Santa come in? Would we have to buzz his a** to apartment 2B? (that's a jeff dunham joke). Anyways most of all my time is on youtube but thats only becuase I try to find 1 new song everyday. That might sound odd but it's a great hobbie. I read horoscopes when I'm bored and comics are fun to. I dun' know what else to say but I hope you like my profile.

Favourite genre of music: Who can choose?
Favourite cartoon character: 2- Yami and Yugi
Adored Anime characters: Alfred, Arthur, and- well Hetalia.
Fav. color: It's mean to make me choose...
eh- rainbow?

People person: I'm friendly lol and open minded.
I can be defensive but usually for a pretty good reason.
Interests
I apologize for the following pent up rant. I'm mellow and happy on the inside but I just need to get this out. 
If "she" reads this she's either gonna cry or come after me. 
I don't know wtf to say anymore. But I have some feelings to. So sorry about this-

I'm so torn up inside and I can't even talk to her. 
It's been years...

She cheated on me. 
Confuses me. 
And she forgot my name. 
Then cries when I'm not focused on her. 
Hates everything sexual. And thinks I'm a self centered sexual deviant. 
I had a nightmare of her being so negative towards my new friends I made at college.
And I had this dream gone nightmare when I was in my college dorm.
She gave me photo's long ago of her that I ingrained into my head
I was happy in the dream and then everything went sour.  

Well. Fuck. 
My life doesn't revolve around it sex.
And if I want to act sexy then dam it I will. I live once. I'm gonna act like a sexy rock star fuck, who will not give two shits about anything but love. When I'm gonna love something I'm gonna do it right. And if I feel like being physical it just means I care- ALOT. And when I'm horny a get possessive now. I listen, I be careful, but when the time comes then ya- I'll ravage. 

I'm in college and she dropped off the face of the earth years ago which scares the shit out of me. 
And I want to burn every picture she drew for me but I can't...

So if I remember the time right, 2 years ago? So 2 years ago I acted like a lovesick simpleton trying to give my life and devotion to her- and I scared her cause I was like a chicken with it's head cut off trying to "make it work". 
Even looking back on it what in the fuck was wrong with me... 
She wants to forget about me and I'm just an ignorant road block in her way. 

And people tell me I'm kind, smart, wonderful, nice, and even sexy. In my last years of high school I did Roleplay. 
Ya I was young and stupid with time to kill doing role plays online. It was to fill a void. And it helped a little. 

And this woman, who's gorgeous mind you, forgot my name and cries when I try to date someone else. 
She had someone contact me about dating someone, and months later me and this person (this one person she may have been either jealous or upset about) broke up with me. Peacefully might I add. 

...

Now I'm single and thinking "Maybe I should have asked her why she was crying?" 
Maybe I should have tried again even though I knew talking to her would be agonizingly terrifying with her picking apart my words and sentences. And she didn't even like the relationship...

Well I always look like the bad guy, and when I spoke back then it was either too passionate or borderline creepy. Anyways I forgave her repetitively, she wanted to break up and I just want her to be happy. 
Yet she forgets my online name, and thinks I'm a sexual deviant.

Back then it was just love. And wanting the other to feel good. 

If I'm a pervert now from what I have done over the years- fine. I'd rather know wth I'm doing then not at all. 

I tried being a protector, the pleaser, the listener, the devoted mate, patient, willing to do anything.

Now? 
Everything needs to be more laid back. 

I'm just going to go on normal dates... 
Look at the person and their real character. 
Not someone else's character or a fictional one. 

I want a normal dating experience, 
and if I'm gay. I'm going to be the best dam boyfriend I can be. 
And I'll pick out cute fun dates. Real life, dinners, movies, and picnics. 

If I'm single for a while it's fine.
I know I'm worth it... I don't need to bend backwards or go on my knees because I'm lovesick and hurt over 1 person. 
Unless it's to help somebody- or give a ring on my knees to someone. Which I don't see the ring anytime soon.

So I'll try my hardest to move on. 
Ya, Sounds good. :)

Oh and I'm not going to continue my YouTube channel forever- I use the same name as on here. I'm just going to keep posting things I like till I move on from it. And if I cover it in anymore Hetalia it may be cutesy but I want to sugar coat it with cuteness (probably usuk) and sexy videos. Sexy videos because I get frisky and feel like the shit sometimes. I'm single and I need an outlet if I can't be passionate. Anyways, I have 1 video ready for "a like" for Christmas. It's a funny video but I might quit before Christmas. Idk. I'm gonna roll with it. :) 

  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: You Don't Know Me Lyrics by Ben Folds and Regina.
  • Reading: My feelings and now relaxing.
  • Watching: Was watchin Hetalia & League of legends vids today
  • Playing: I like to play videos games. :)
  • Eating: I'm not. But I really want to make a snickers joke
  • Drinking: Nope.

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Levlion526 Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2014
Helloooooooo paRSON!!!!!!!
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Djcrazybanana Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2013
Hat it's me Joana from your German class
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HarukaTokiwa Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2013
la-spear (samnite)*Nordic Happy dance, idk let's roll with it!*
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:iconexcitedlaplz:
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Levlion526 Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2013
THANK YOU GOR THE WATCH!!!!
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HarukaTokiwa Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013
of course lol
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(Tag a quality deviant. You're it! Quality doesn't mean you have a lot of followers, or a lot of messages. It means that you're nice to other people, and you deserve to be happy. If you get this message, someone is telling you that they love you as you are, and they don't care how much followers you have. Send this to 10 deviants who deserve it. If you break the chain, nothing will happen. But it's just good to let someone know that you love them!:D (Big Grin))
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HarukaTokiwa Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2013
OMG X'D
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Thanks for the fav :iconarigatouplz:
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