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I will never get her back... even if I could I will never find her.

No matter what I do or try. She's happier and finally growing on her own. 
I wish I knew some things before we dated.... but that's behind us. 
And I'm happy she's happy. At least I think she is...

I wish I did things differently. And to talk to her now would only hurt her or maybe scare her. 
It's been so long almost 3 years... I bet she's forgotten about me even though I loved her so much. 
Her love for me always wavered... and she was probably too young to understand.
Which bothered me, her age, when she told me.

I know I have no chance with her but I will always look back, and be happy. 
She can tear me to shreds and I still love her. 
I think about her face sometimes and wonder if she lied about the pictures.... to protect herself and her own heart. 
As long as she lives and breathes, happy without me that should be enough. 
My existence is probably a pain in her ass, and I feel bad to have made her mad or annoyed maybe from the existence if she thinks of me.
I shouldn't be greedy. But even though she probably hates me I need to let her know, I still love you.
Be safe in the world, follow your dreams, ... I love you.
  • Listening to: Music
  • Reading: Making sure what I wrote is how I feel.
  • Watching: Youtube and idk why on TV but Cutthroat Kitchen
  • Playing: I like to play videos games.
  • Eating: Not hungry.
  • Drinking: Water
So much has happened. And I'm a serious gamer now. I've played Age of Wushu, League of Legends (LoL), Street fighter, Call of Duty, Assassin's creed, Amnesia the Dark descent, and a little bit of Warframe and DC Nation. I've played multiple zombie killing games cause Why not? Lately I play League of Legends and Magic the gathering- mostly with Kelly and Ryan. Sometimes I play LoL with Libby and David for a full team rather than randomized people we don't know on 5 Vs 5. I picked a silly name but I'm up for a match if anyone wants to play. I go by "Aleron Diamante".

Ryan and Kelly are great friends of mine. I met them at school. I also have a sister named Kelly so it's awkward when I'm home but not on campus. They are the best people I have ever met. They're dating at the moment which can get awkward watching them make out in front of me but I'm happy for them. I'm sorta used to it now. I keep trying to date people in college but I'm pretty much friend zoned and online I ended up single again.....

The one girl I have on my mind want's nothing to do with me. She haunts me and she's still alive. And my heart is sick of making her cry. She's been clear with me, a long time ago... my heart sank but I respect and love her. She wants nothing to do with me.... And when I dated someone else online she cried and her friend was mad with me.... Those tears ripped me apart and it kills me to wonder, about the future. I want to know what she really thinks... if at all. Why is it I only hurt her... when all I want to do is love her? She wants nothing to do with me....
Friendship left me wanting more cause I wanted that title of being hers....
She doesn't want my love or at least she said so....

I wanted her and I still only want her after about 3 years now. 
  • Mood: Regretful
  • Listening to: LoL parody songs and love songs.
  • Reading: Fb messages from friends- Also comics, mostly LoL.
  • Watching: Youtube online, Twilight zone in the living room.
  • Playing: I play videos games and the game of life.
  • Eating: But, I'm not eating....
  • Drinking: .... Go home Rainbow your Drunk! I don't drink.

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HarukaTokiwa
Cupcakes killed the Muffin man
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United States
Hey there, I'm Haruka and this is my profile. I'm a Sagittarius and I enjoy childrens card games. And I'm Head over heels about Hetalia- I roleplay it. So be nice and don't scorn me for it. Also I live in a nice house- how else would Santa come in? Would we have to buzz his a** to apartment 2B? (that's a jeff dunham joke). Anyways most of all my time is on youtube but thats only becuase I try to find 1 new song everyday. That might sound odd but it's a great hobbie. I read horoscopes when I'm bored and comics are fun to. I dun' know what else to say but I hope you like my profile.

Favourite genre of music: Who can choose?
Favourite cartoon character: 2- Yami and Yugi
Adored Anime characters: Alfred, Arthur, and- well Hetalia.
Fav. color: It's mean to make me choose...
eh- rainbow?

People person: I'm friendly lol and open minded.
I can be defensive but usually for a pretty good reason.
Interests
I will never get her back... even if I could I will never find her.

No matter what I do or try. She's happier and finally growing on her own. 
I wish I knew some things before we dated.... but that's behind us. 
And I'm happy she's happy. At least I think she is...

I wish I did things differently. And to talk to her now would only hurt her or maybe scare her. 
It's been so long almost 3 years... I bet she's forgotten about me even though I loved her so much. 
Her love for me always wavered... and she was probably too young to understand.
Which bothered me, her age, when she told me.

I know I have no chance with her but I will always look back, and be happy. 
She can tear me to shreds and I still love her. 
I think about her face sometimes and wonder if she lied about the pictures.... to protect herself and her own heart. 
As long as she lives and breathes, happy without me that should be enough. 
My existence is probably a pain in her ass, and I feel bad to have made her mad or annoyed maybe from the existence if she thinks of me.
I shouldn't be greedy. But even though she probably hates me I need to let her know, I still love you.
Be safe in the world, follow your dreams, ... I love you.
  • Listening to: Music
  • Reading: Making sure what I wrote is how I feel.
  • Watching: Youtube and idk why on TV but Cutthroat Kitchen
  • Playing: I like to play videos games.
  • Eating: Not hungry.
  • Drinking: Water

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Levlion526 Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2014
Helloooooooo paRSON!!!!!!!
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Djcrazybanana Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2013
Hat it's me Joana from your German class
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HarukaTokiwa Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2013
la-spear (samnite)*Nordic Happy dance, idk let's roll with it!*
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Djcrazybanana Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2013
:iconexcitedlaplz:
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Levlion526 Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2013
THANK YOU GOR THE WATCH!!!!
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HarukaTokiwa Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013
of course lol
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TreeMaiden Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
(Tag a quality deviant. You're it! Quality doesn't mean you have a lot of followers, or a lot of messages. It means that you're nice to other people, and you deserve to be happy. If you get this message, someone is telling you that they love you as you are, and they don't care how much followers you have. Send this to 10 deviants who deserve it. If you break the chain, nothing will happen. But it's just good to let someone know that you love them!:D (Big Grin))
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HarukaTokiwa Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2013
OMG X'D
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Thanks for the fav :iconarigatouplz:
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