I will never get her back... even if I could I will never find her.
No matter what I do or try. She's happier and finally growing on her own.
I wish I knew some things before we dated.... but that's behind us.
And I'm happy she's happy. At least I think she is...
I wish I did things differently. And to talk to her now would only hurt her or maybe scare her.
It's been so long almost 3 years... I bet she's forgotten about me even though I loved her so much.
Her love for me always wavered... and she was probably too young to understand.
Which bothered me, her age, when she told me.
I know I have no chance with her but I will always look back, and be happy.
She can tear me to shreds and I still love her.
I think about her face sometimes and wonder if she lied about the pictures.... to protect herself and her own heart.
As long as she lives and breathes, happy without me that should be enough.
My existence is probably a pain in her ass, and I feel bad to have made her mad or annoyed maybe from the existence if she thinks of me.
I shouldn't be greedy. But even though she probably hates me I need to let her know, I still love you.
Be safe in the world, follow your dreams, ... I love you.