In college and Happy New Year!

So much has happened. And I'm a serious gamer now. I've played Age of Wushu, League of Legends (LoL), Street fighter, Call of Duty, Assassin's creed, Amnesia the Dark descent, and a little bit of Warframe and DC Nation. I've played multiple zombie killing games cause Why not? Lately I play League of Legends and Magic the gathering- mostly with Kelly and Ryan. Sometimes I play LoL with Libby and David for a full team rather than randomized people we don't know on 5 Vs 5. I picked a silly name but I'm up for a match if anyone wants to play. I go by "Aleron Diamante".

Ryan and Kelly are great friends of mine. I met them at school. I also have a sister named Kelly so it's awkward when I'm home but not on campus. They are the best people I have ever met. They're dating at the moment which can get awkward watching them make out in front of me but I'm happy for them. I'm sorta used to it now. I keep trying to date people in college but I'm pretty much friend zoned and online I ended up single again.....

The one girl I have on my mind want's nothing to do with me. She haunts me and she's still alive. And my heart is sick of making her cry. She's been clear with me, a long time ago... my heart sank but I respect and love her. She wants nothing to do with me.... And when I dated someone else online she cried and her friend was mad with me.... Those tears ripped me apart and it kills me to wonder, about the future. I want to know what she really thinks... if at all. Why is it I only hurt her... when all I want to do is love her? She wants nothing to do with me....
Friendship left me wanting more cause I wanted that title of being hers....
She doesn't want my love or at least she said so....

I wanted her and I still only want her after about 3 years now.